Being forcefully restricted from something/people you love is one of the hardest things ever.
There’s a point in time where enough is enough… Congratulations society, you have managed to successfully reach my breaking point with your hurtful words/actions. I really thought that I would be able to withstand it by covering myself with a persona that made it seem like I was confident. But i was wrong. I knew this was going to happen and I dreaded the moment since my point of realization. I just wish people would consider my feeling before making such ill-conceived judgments. Or better yet, mind their own business instead of torturing me. I did nothing wrong to you… So why eat me alive?
“Sometimes someone has to hurt you deep enough to make you realize how better your life is without them.”
I just want to enjoy life right now. I want to be able to just walk around christmas lights and breathe in the positivity of the surroundings. I just want christmas sweaters. Idk haha.
All i do is complain and release my anger on here… agh. But i mean there’s nowhere else i can do this. So idk.
I’m tired of being disrespected for who I am. I know I don’t deserve it. Usually it’s my ego that takes over but this time… I know this is wrong. It’s either I’m out or you’re taking responsibility for you’re behalf. One and a half years left…. Stay strong.
I never knew it was going to be this hard being away from you guys. I’ll be back soon and i’ll make you guys proud. Thank you for being my motivation for success :) I love you guys so much.

